Monday, December 18, 2006

3 More days to go...AND

BETH FINALLY POSTED! YAY!!!

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Friday, December 15, 2006

Sunday, December 10, 2006

FEDEX

Says my ornament should be here on the 12th. I can't wait to see the person open it up! MEE-MAWS get ready for Christmas 06!!!

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Out of Control

That's exactly what my life feels like right now. I never knew all of the emotions that I could feel at once...but here's just a few.

Frustrated - At myself for the mess I've made lately with relationships and my life.

Thankful - When I stop to think of all the amazing people who love me in spite of myself. I started just running down a list the other day of friends that would do anything for me and care about me...and the list was overwhelming...i'm blessed.

Envious - Of those at my age that seem to have it all together.

Regret - Of the past that can not change.

Sorrow - It feels weird to be a daughter without a dad.

Tormented - By the images, sounds and smell of death.

Hope - That someday, if I'm blessed with a husband and children, that I'll have the chance to correct some wrongs and be all that my children may need from a mom and be a wife that is my husbands strongest supporter.

Determination - To never allow myself to be like "her" in any way.

Anger - At what I've let others do to me in my past, anger at what they've stolen from me (more than possessions) and anger that I continue to let them steal and rob me of joy and sound mind.

Blessed - To be around such Godly, wonderful, patient, incredible, people who would walk through hell with me.

Overwhelmed - At the Sovereignty of God. It's overwhelming to think on the fact that My God is a God that never changes, and that remains faithful. It's taken me falling on my face the past few days and weeks to come to the understanding that I am nothing without him and that apart from Him I CAN DO NOTHING. It is He that gives me my next breath, and it is only by his amazing power, strength and grace that I can stand.

I truly stand amazed in the presence of Jesus, and wonder how he could love me, a sinner...but how marvelous, how wonderful is His glory. Lord work in our lives in such an astounding way that only YOU can be given the credit for what incredible things happen.

I'm in process right now of trying to regain perspective on life, ministry and relationships. I'll let you know if I get any!!!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Hurt

You know how sometimes it takes you a few times of hearing a song before you catch on to what it's saying. This one if fairly new and by Christina Aguilera, but I really "heard" it for the first time today and I have to say that it hit me like a ton of bricks. I thought I knew what grieving looked like, I mean I've been through it before, but I guess each process is different.


Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face.
You told me how proud you were but I walked away.
If I only I knew what I know today, ohhhh.

I would hold you in my arms.
I would take the pain away.
Thank you for all you've done.
Forgive all your mistakes.
There's nothing I wouldn't do.
To hear your voice again.
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there.

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you.
For everything I just couldn't do.
And I've hurt myself by hurting you.

Some days I feel broke inside, but I won't admit.
Sometimes I just wanna hide cuz it's you I miss.
You know it's so hard to say good-bye when it comes to this, ohhhh yeah.

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do.
To have just one more chance.
To look into your eyes and see you looking back.

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you.
For everything I just couldn't do.
And I've hurt myself, oh...

If I had just one more day.
I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away.
Oh, It's dangerous.
It's so out of line to try and turn back time.

I'm sorry for blaming you.
For everything I just couldn't do.
And I've hurt myself....
by hurting you.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

I'm back!

I'm back in Georgia. Not much up for posting right now. Maybe in the days to come. But just wanted to thank you all for your prayers and support. They transitioned into God's grace and strength for my family. We're ok. Not great, not bad...but ok.

Love you all!
Christy

Monday, November 20, 2006

Today is worse

He's losing blood but we don't know that source. Fever has been steady at 104 and not breaking. I'm headed home tonight probably...maybe tomorrow after school, but I doubt that I can make it that much longer without being there.

I'll try and post in the next few days and will call someone that can pass along the news to most of you readers if something happens.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Not an update I wanted to give...

But I figured since this was an easy way to reach most of my friends....here goes.

As of this morning, they have him resting very comfortably (thanks to morphine) and have his vitals under control. He does have double pneumonia (never really got over it) and now has developed a staff infection in his blood stream. The doctors want to get him as situated as they can before they release him back to the nursing home, where Hospice will take over care. We have chose to place a feeding tube into him, but will not be taking any measures to place him on the ventilator. This was not an easy decision for my mother and myself, and we have wrestled with whether it's the right one, but for now it's the decision we have arrived at.

So there you go...One hour at a time, one day a time. I'll keep you updated.

Thanks for your prayers! Love you all!

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Will I ever get it all figured out!!

What I want to do with my life. I mean I know I'm called where I am...but do I want to get a Master's to start teaching so that I can make more money and live a little more comfortable? Do I go get a Master of Divinity...and have you seen the requirements from anywhere besides Liberty?? Geez...Am I really cut out to do that again? I barely did it the first time. Would I have time being a children's minister, para-pro and a student again? I just have the restlessness in me right now, a discomfort for where I'm headed and I don't really know what to do. Part of me wants to sit back and let God work and do His thing, and know that He will show me what to do....but part of me just wants to fix everything myself, figure something out and go for it.

I have no clue...and even though I don't have to make these decisions tomorrow...I still would love to know what I'm suppose to do. Anybody else have a clue for me?

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

ROLL TIDE!




JUST GEARING UP FOR SATURDAY!! ROLL TIDE!!

Monday, November 13, 2006

Wow

There's a businessman
There's a widowed wife
A smIling face with a shattered life
A teenage girl with a choice to make
It's crowded here in church today

And the preacher says as the sermon ends
Please close your eyes
Bow your heads
Is there anyone in need of prayer
Oh Jesus wants to meet you here

'Cuz we all fall short and we all have sinned
But where you left, God's grace begins

It's beautiful
Beautiful
Come as you are
surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful

Well, he'd never been to church before
but he came today as a last resort
His world was crashing in
and he was suffocating in his sin

but tears rolled down as hope rushed in
He closed his eyes
Raised his hand
Worshipping the God who can bring him back to life again and

It's beautiful
Beautiful
Come as you are
surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Beautiful
Come as you are
surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful

'Cuz there's nothing more beautiful than God
and when his sons and daughters come broken

Hallelujah Hallelujah
come as you are
Hallelujah Hallelujah
Come as you are

Broken and beautiful
Beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Beautiful
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful

Come as you are
Broken and beautiful (Hallelujah)
Beautiful (Hallelujah)
Come as you are
Surrender your heart
Broken and beautiful
Broken and beautiful
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
Beautiful

I needed some encouragment today....

After going through some old e-mails the other day...I ran across this one and just had to have a good laugh and cry. It did serve to remind me that I really can do things when I set my mind to them.


>===== Original Message From JUDITH ROBERTS =====
Dr. Potts has given permission for each of you to march in graduation at the
end of the line. However, your names will not be printed in the program and
you will not receive a diploma cover. The policy of the college is to only
print and call names of those who have completed all requirements.

Once you complete all your graduation requirements you may choose to walk
again next year and have your name in the program and receive your diploma, or
we can mail you your diploma whenever all requirements are met.

Judith L. Roberts, Ph.D.
Vice President and Dean of Faculty
Judson College
Marion, Alabama 36756
334-683-5106

I had to put this one up to...you'd be laughing that hard if you had a ball of flames coming at your head!



My friends are great!

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Redeem My Time

I was told Sunday to redeem my time today on my wonderful day off, after an eventful and tiring weekend...I think getting up at 1:45p.m. would be considered as redeeming and wasting...but I've loved every minute of it.

I'm in a great debate with myself over whether or not I should trade Little Red in. She's been a great car these 6 years that we've been together, but bless her heart, her time is coming close. My transmission slipped the other day though, and there are a few little things that are starting to go bad. I really don't WANT a car payment, but I don't WANT to be on the side of the road stuck either. My horoscope into Woman's World said to plan and not act (not that I really listen to those things!!). So I think I might take that advice for another week and at least not make a decision until I go home for Thanksgiving.

I do know this...that I will cry like a baby when I trade her in. I got her in January of my freshman year at Judson. That's been almost 6 years ago. Think of all that we've been through in those 6 years.

Anyway...can't think of that now. I have to think of how i'm going to redeem the next few hours and actually go find a way to make this day somewhat productive. If I even just get all of my laundry caught up it would be a good day.

The End

Monday, October 30, 2006

I had poppy seed dressing today...

and it was actually really good, compared to that crap Marie like at Golden Club Banquet the year she was in a trance from returning from Africa.

Other than that...I have a long thought out post that's coming soon, but I think i'll save it for closer to the weekend...when I GET TO SEE MY FRIENDS!! WAHOO!!!!

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

The Church At Mill Creek

1. We Value God.
We Will Glorify God and enjoy Him through
lifestyles of personal worship

2. We value People.
We value people as GodÂ’s creation.

3. We value relationships.
We value the deepening of intimacy and
trust by developing authentic relationships
with one another in community.

4. We Value the family.
The family is GodÂ’s first institution and one
of His choice tools to make disciples in this
world. We will therefore, seek to equip
families to make disciples at home.

5. We value ChristÂ’s mission in this world.
We will focus the mission of Church at Mill
Creek around ChristÂ’s personal mission,
“to seek and to save that which is lost,” and
his personal ministry methodology of
multiplying His influence in this world through
Disciple-making.

6. We value time.
Time is a gift from God. We will be good
stewards of the time He has given us to help
people come into and enjoy a relationship with
Him!
7. We value integrity.
We value both individual and ministry
integrity. We will encourage people to pursue
God personally, to care for their family, and
use their ministry gifts in the balanced lifestyle
called for in the Scriptures.

8. We value simplicity.
The uniqueness of The Church at Mill Creek is
found in our intentional effort to accomplish
more, by doing less. This focus on simplicity will
empower us to do the few things we do with
excellence, and empower individuals and
families to pursue individual ministries.



These are the core values of The Church At Mill Creek, the church plant that I work at as a children's minister. It's a model of ministry that is unique, yet becoming a lot more common in "church world" today. The thought behind it is that when you strip away the excessive ministry that we sometime think is important, you are free to get back to the basics of Christianity.

1. To pursue God on a personal level. As a church we have done a HUGE injustice to believers by allowing them to believe that coming to church is what "feeds" them their relationship with Christ. Instead we believe that it's the believers responsibility to pursue God. We want to empower you in your walk and on your journey.

2. To build your family. We've also done an injustice to families by saying, bring your kids to our children's ministry, and allow us to be the spiritual leader in your child's life. Instead...we want to empower you to build your family the way that scripture instructs parents to do. We want to be reinforcing what you are teaching at home. I realize that not every child that walks through the doors of our children's ministry will have a family that does this...I wouldn't have, and that's where it is the church's responsibilty to pour into the next generation and build them up.

If you are single, the actions and wise decisions that make now, will help in building your family.

3. To experience life in a small group of believers. We want ministry to be on a personal level. So we encourage community to happen within a group of believers that have things in common. It's encouragment, accountability and just the presence of other believers in your life.

4. To influence those in your natural life path. You have more influence over those that you meet at the mailbox, in your favorite restuarant, or at work than you do showing up to some random persons house on Thursday night for visitation. We want to strip you have having to be a part of endless programs that drag people down, and free you up to do ministry in your own natural path.

It's been a roller coaster ride trying to adopt to this model of ministry, but nowI'vet i've embraced it, it's been an amazing to see the way that God has worked through me.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Since it's 8:45 p.m. Alabama time....

I feel safe to say that my phone might not ring again tonight, which means that some friends (mee-maws) forgot something today.

ok...so sara beth called as i typed this. she's safe from elimination.

Saturday, September 30, 2006

Sorry Matt

It's just easier to do the list again...

Reasons I'm a happier person

*I got to see my mother. You know when you see someone and you just sigh that huge sigh...like your home and your safe and nothing else in the world matters at that moment...because you are with them. I love my mother.
*I got to spend a weekend at home...with things paid for. I love it when I go home and eat out 10 times and family pays for it all. Not that I am spoiled at all.
*I got to see almost everyone that I really cared anything about seeing...and even a few good that I didn't expect at Homecoming Friday night.
*I got to see Anna go through her Senior Homecoming. She has more inner and outer beauty than she will ever realize. She makes me proud to know her. I love you ANNER!
*I got PAID! Oh what a huge blessing to the bank account because I was about to go sell myself in downtown ATL. I hear the going rate on Jimmy Carter is more than the public school system.

Reasons I'm NOT so happy
*New Hope lost Friday night. A few really bad mistakes and some HORRIBLE calling. To the zebras...you deserved everything you got Friday night.
*Alabama lost...but at least it wasn't a blow out like expected.

Quote from the weekend.....
Heard from the stands of the New Hope High School Football game...directed at the sorry refs.

"Get out of here you jackass..."
"That's not a jackass...that's a zebra!"

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Ready, Set...Go

Here's the rundown....

* It's 8:34 (Eastern Time) and I'm fighting to stay awake till 9.
* Working at the High School is going good...
* Kids today are NOT the same as when WE were teenagers....
* Two out of the three statements above make me sound like my mother.
* The Church at Mill Creek's future is amazing, exciting, and scary all at the same time.
* Getting paid once a month from the school board system STINKS...and therefore you cannot reach me on my cell phone until the end of this week. In fact...just plan to probably not reach me on the last week of the month for a while.
* Continuing that thought...don't expect me to eat out, pay bills or drive anywhere other than my house and work on that last week either.
* I miss my mother. Bad. Really bad.
* I'll confess that I resent my dad because he's the reason my mother will never come see me here in Georgia.
* On second thought...maybe it's because she won't drive outside of New Hope.
* I miss my friends.
* I kinda miss my life pre - 5:30 A.M. Wake up calls
* Darlene starts Chemo Thursday
* I get to see Darlene and the rest that is New Hope on Thursday
* It's the begining of fall time in NEW HOPE!! (They might even make it to the playoffs this year!)
* Alabama's kicker sucks
* I'm coming up with stuff to make my list seem longer and my life less boring.
* The mee-maw babies are CUTE!!! Recent picture on their blogs (see right) prove that.
* I want to believe what I know to be true about God. Try to figure that out.
* When you see a therapist and he has to diagram your life on his note pad...signs are...YOU'RE CRAZY!!
* God is faithful and good and at the end of the day...that's all that is important.

* The end!