Look at this photograph

So this year at school I get my own laptop. I'm pretty excited about this because now I don't have to share a computer with my husband. I decided to make my screen saver my saved pictures. I went on facebook and myspace and my e-mail and saved a whole bunch of pictures to my documents. I hit apply and there you have it, my pictures are my screen saver. And then it hit...

I'm sitting at my desk at work today. I'm tired. I'm frustrated. I'm lonely in my trailer and my computer goes on stand by. The first picture pops up and it's the mee-maws on a whale. The second one is of me as a baby. The third of Brandon and our nieces at our wedding. The next a picture at a wedding I was in with old friends from Georgia. The next of me and Sara-Beth at a Judson function and then the next of us at my wedding. A picture of Brandon kissing me on the forehead on our honeymoon and one of him on bended knee asking me to marry him. And so on and so on. The flood of tears came as I sat and watched my life unfold before me. Of course it wasn't a complete snapshot of my life, but it covers a lot. My mind went from being tired and frustrated to overwhelmed at the goodness in my life. There was a bittersweet feeling towards all the changes in my life. Joy over pictures of my sweet husband and family. Sadness over friends that have drifted away or no longer care to be a part of my life. Sadness over the distance between the Judson girls and myself. Pride at the pictures of children and families we have created and moments we have shared since graduation.

Tears of joy and sadness.

To everything there is a season, and
a time to every purpose under heaven:

A time to be born, and
a time to die;
a time to plant, and
a time to pluck up
that which is planted;

A time to kill, and
a time to heal;
a time to break down, and
a time to build up;

A time to weep, and
a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and
a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, and
a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and
a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and
a time to lose;
a time to keep, and
a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and
a time to sow;
a time to keep silence, and
a time to speak;

A time to love, and
a time to hate;
a time of war; and
a time of peace.

Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8