Review Mirror

We were here a year ago. It's a hard place to look back. I want to say that where I am today makes up for all the pain of that point in time but the truth is...it doesn't really. At all. Sure, I am thankful for where we are now. I am thankful for the life that is continuing to grow inside of me. Longer than any other life has grown inside of me. I am thankful for the little heart that is beating, lungs that are breathing, brain that is thinking, blood that is flowing inside of me right now. But that place of a year ago STILL HURTS. It hurts when I think of November and what could have been with that little life. It hurts when I see other people go through something like this and those feelings of anger and hurt come rushing back to me. It hurts to recall those memories of waking up and knowing that it was over. It hurts.

My faith has been made stronger (starting to sound a little like Kelly Clarkson I guess) through that time. I am thankful for that. I am thankful that the Lord chooses to restore and heal both broken bodies and hearts. I am thankful that the Lord is faithful and have learned that faithfulness is not dependant on your plans going the right way.

I am glad that this season of life is in our review mirror and at times I think that I have driven it completely out of sight. But somehow I know it will always be with me and a part of me is ok with that. It keeps the memory fresh of dependence on Christ and the need for mercy and strength each and every day whether or not we realize it.

I am excited about what's ahead in our future. I can't wait to hold Kennedy. To snuggle with her, to sing to her (though she might can wait for that), to stay up late at night watching her breathe, to pray over her, to dream big dreams for her.

Today I am thankful for what is behind and what lies ahead and for the grace and strength to go through it all.

24 Week Appointment

We only got an ultrasound confirming that she is indeed a baby girl so there are no real updates as far as measurements. She is using me as a trampoline right now and turning all crazy. During the ultrasound she changed positions 2 or 3 times so who knows where she will end up.

The doctor is not concerned with my swelling in my feet since my blood pressure was 120/80 yesterday. She is sending me to a Chiropractor that specializes in pregnancy to try and help the nerve in my lower back that is now pinched thanks to Little Miss.

I got the dreaded glucose juice that I have to drink 30 minutes before my next appointment in three weeks. I'll start it at 7:45, have 5 minutes to finish it and then have to wait an hour before the check my blood. So looking forward to this appointment! ;P

In other news we have decided to cancel our trip to DC this Spring Break due to logistics and my back killing me. We have decided to just go into the mountains for a few days and then spend the rest of the week getting the nursery and things ready for Kennedy. My mom and aunt will be here towards the end of the week to help and I can't wait for my Aunt Jettie to make her first trip to Georgia.

Things are coming right along and I am hoping the next 16 weeks will go by uneventful and fast!

It's A....

A sweet baby girl. How in the world did I really think that I could have a boy first? That would be breaking Judson tradition apparently. :) (To date all of my close friends from college have had a girl first.)

Kennedy Anne will be her name. I wasn't really excited about all the girly names out there. I just can't see myself with an Aubrey or Ansley. Brandon finally looked at me one day and mentioned by facination with the Kennedy family and suggested it as a first name. I fell in love with it and there you have it. The Anne is my sister's middle name and just fits well with Kennedy.

I have started working on her nursery. So far the scheme is chocolate walls with white, lime green, bright blue (yes I know she's a girl...it'll be cute....trust me!) and some pink accents.

I am trying to wrap my head around the fact that I am having a daughter and what all that means but that's a whole different post for a different day.

I'll post stats on her tomorrow after our 24 week visit this afternoon.

Surprise

Surprise....

I do still remember how to log on to my blog. Shocking I know.

Things have been a little more than crazy around the Peevy household. It seems like we are always in a constant whirlwind of activity but we wouldn't have it any other way. :)

So here's the updates:

Brandon is doing great and loving the fire department. He is about to take his CDL test so that he can start the path of becoming a driver (yeah they don't let you just drive around a big ol' fire truck apparently.) It will take him close to 3 years before he is promoted to driver but he's excited.

I am continuing to do well. School has been kicking my tail. It does every year around this time. The warmer it gets, the crazier the kids get. The full moon this week isn't helping. I actually had a kid kicked out of school last week for reporting his weed stolen at school. Well played my friend, well played.

I am 22 weeks and a day pregnant as of today. Everything continues to go well. It took a while to really feel the baby move but once it started it has been full force. The baby has been playing games with us and we still do not have 100% confirmation on the sex. The best guess is a boy but I haven't bought anything blue yet. We have another ultrasound on the 23rd and hopefully baby will stop sitting with legs crossed and help this mama start planning for the arrival.

Speaking of arrival...I can't believe that in 4 months I will have a child. It is something that I have longed for and prayed for but feel so unprepared for. Last night at dinner I had the chance to snuggle with a friends' 8 week old baby and got really emotional. Somewhat overwhelmed and somewhat fearful. Excited to be a mama but scared at the responsibility that comes with it.

Registering for this kid was INSANE. I can not believe all the stuff that is out there for something that is so small. Swings, mats, bouncy things, more swings, more bouncy things. Good night there's so much crap to think through and I honestly have had no clue where to start. At least when you get married you have been in a house before and know what your taste is and what to register for. Baby....heck I don't know.

So since I don't have a clue 1. what the baby is and 2. what I am doing...we decided to fix up other areas of the house that I do know a little something about like the living room. :) We recently put down new carpet in the living room and new tile in the bathroom. We are trying to be Bob Vila and honestly it's working for a house that we don't want to sink much money into. We have some new light fixtures to replace the 1950's chandeliers in the house and are working on moving the laundy room from down in the basement to the upstairs (thanks to Kay Davis lobbying my father in law for that one.)

For spring break we are headed to Washington D.C. Brandon has never been there and I love it. We plan to head out early Saturday morning and there's a lot on the to-do list. I'll post more about our plans as it gets closer. I am excited about showing Brandon the city and possibly meeting up with a few friends from college while I am there.

Till next time...