BFF

Only we can sing all the words to Fancy...even the ones that we made up because we couldn't figure out the real ones and still sing to this day like they are the real words. Only we can randomly tell the random songs on your random CD's by the first few notes and bust it out like we are ghetto. Only we can have 10 word conversations on the phone, most of the time calling each other some kind of name, and end it with love you...bye. Only YOU can be the best friend I've ever had or wanted. I love you and hope that you have a great birthday.

I'll even make you a for real birthday cake instead of one out of cereal.

She didn't have to be....

There are very few words that can express the love that I have for this woman. She had no reason to take me in and love me like her own. She had no obligation to rescue me from the horrible life that I was living thanks to her step-daughter. She just simply chose to love and care for me in a way that only a mother could. She once gave me an angel that said "without you I wouldn't be a mother,".....but without her I wouldn't be alive. She may have not physically gave birth to me, but she gave me a life that I wouldn't trade for anything.

Restless

Lately I have been so restless. That's not really a good thing for me. I am a very impatient person and hate not knowing what the next step is. Sometimes in that state of being restless I do stupid stuff. I eat tooooo much, sleep tooooo much (when given the chance), buy tooooooo much or just other random acts of stupidity.

I just really want to be settled for the first time in a long time. I want a job that will be there year after year. I want to be in a house that is "ours" and not something that we are renting or "borrowing" as the next case will be. I want to be done with school and not having it hanging over my dagum head all the time. I want to be at a place where we could start a family when we want, but a trip to the doctor's office the other day confirmed that it might be a while. I'm just so stinking restless.